Easter and allergies, more or less

Last Sunday was Easter, the family I work for had their family visiting, so I got an unexpected three day weekend (yay!) which was great since my allergies decided to kick into high gear (boo!) but I survived. There's something about being able to just do nothing every now and then that is so ridiculously satisfying. I really like being able to take advantage of it as often as possible, and as life's responsibilities increase, that seems to be less and less. I was able to make a really delish cuban style lamb shank crock pot meal for Easter (my mom had given up meat for lent, so this was her choice :)) I forgot to take pics and had some difficulty tasting it fully because of the allergy situation, but I'll definitely be making this one again soon, so stay tuned for a recipe on that one!

I was able to catch up with a lot of my favorite people over the last week and a half or so, which was also great. I've been feeling more vulnerable lately which makes me want to pull back, but i'm glad i haven't. I'm a huge fan of being around the people I adore. I'm a very solitary person and absolutely need regular alone time to feel like a normal person, but whether we're just chillin' or running around the city, I feel that I'm fueled by being around my loved ones just as much. So a big thank you to those of you who've made themselves available to me over the last two weeks or so. I love you and am grateful for you!!

I've also been feeling sort of strangely over the last month or two. Lately I've been caught between two very distinct and yet dichotomous feelings. My life has changed so drastically over the last year that I'm used to the uncertainty, but it usually makes me very nervous, at best. I've been feeling the usual sense of urgency regarding my still cloudy-as-pea-soup future, yet whenever I start to tense up with anxiety due to the intense level of uncertainty, I start to feel this overwhelming sense of peace. I understand what's happening to a certain degree, but I've never experienced it, so it's somewhat alarming.... I'm hoping for a new life plateau soon, but am trying to stay present so that I don't miss anything that's happening during the climb. There have definitely been some important lessons to learn so far, and I'm glad I didn't miss them.

Hump day

Hey-lo,
I've been really having a homebody moment and I'm kind of loving it. I've been really in to staying at home and making food, or getting crafty, although the crafts I've kinda put on hold since I'm going to be moving in June. I've got a couple I've been working on, but they're gifts so I don't want to give anything away ;)
So, in the spirit of my inner Suzy Homemaker, here's the dinner I made last night, complete with recipe! You could make it more healthy by adding a bright green veggie or salad, but I'm pairing mine w/ sliced cornichons and red wine, because I can ;)

Spicy brown sugar chicken with garlic and wrapped with bacon

Chicken
bacon
garlic powder
cayenne pepper
black pepper
salt
brown sugar
olive oil

Take 4-6 pieces of chicken, cutlet size, or if you have full breasts, cut into 3rds or quarters, place in baking pan (i did 4 and used a 9x9 glass dish) and drizzle with olive oil. Then dust them with cayenne pepper, garlic powder, (I used thinly sliced garlic) salt and pepper then wrap with bacon and roll in brown sugar until coated. Place back in dish bake for 30-40 min or until cooked through.

Dijon potatoes with bacon and Bleu cheese

Potatoes
Dijon mustard
bacon
Bleu cheese
salt
Black pepper
butter (or olive oil)

Butter or coat with olive oil an oven safe dish. (I used a glass 9x9). Cut potatoes into 1 inch pieces i used 2 russets) Spoon Dijon and mix until coated (1-3 tbsp) Cut up 1-2 slices of uncooked bacon and mix in. Crumble desired amount of cheese on top. Bake in 400 degree oven for 20-30 min or so until the potatoes are cooked through. (I like mine a bit more like hash, so I cooked it longer)

I cooked them both at the same time, so it was done in under an hour and in my belly in less than 20 min, so.... Yeah! Great recipes!

The family I work for moved last week to a new neighborhood. The boy was a bit under the weather today, so after an easy-going morning and a noontime snooze, we braved it and ventured out to explore and grab some lunch and play at the park. It started raining enough to send us home earlier than we'd hoped, but it was still fun. :) The rest of the afternoon was dedicated to Thomas. Thomas the tank engine.
Playlist: Fleetwood Mac, Stevie Nicks, Doobie Brothers, Eagles, Norman Greenbaum, Steve Miller Band, Led Zepplin, the Beatles, the Rolling Stones, Bruce Springsteen, Pretenders, Tom Petty, the Police, CCR, Don McLean...

Random and Sunday

Random is definitely the best one word description of my Friday and Saturday last. After work on Friday I had plans to meet up with a friend, (which turned into two friends actually, yay!) and just as we were settling in to have some good eats with our drinks, and a rather large group of people came in carrying bags and boxes. We were like, 'okay...' Especially when they start moving the tables around and we hear them mention a PA. (yeah.) We were still pretty 'whatevs' especially since we relocated to a booth that was across the room from the apparently impending hubbub. Then they pull out clip boards. At this point, we're like, 'let's wrap this up and take it to another venue, yes?' and we down our drinks and pay our tab just as they fire up the PA and start up with their spiel which I think had something to do with politics. They did ask me to sign something as I was escaping, but I just whined something about it being a rough week and he left me alone. The rest of the night was normal, had a couple more drinks at the regular watering hole, then met up with my sister and her bf at an awesome meats place and had a beer(!) and went home kinda early. We had plans to go hiking on Saturday so I wanted to make sure I got enough sleep.
It hadn't really occurred to me that it had been snowing in the area we were planning to hike, so I was a bit surprised when we got to our supposed hiking destination and it was not really there, due to about 3-4 feet of snow (boo). Fortunately the group I was with was just as easygoing as me about the situation, so we played in the snow until our feet were frozen. We then decided to head back and check out the reptile zoo and BBQ that we passed on the way in. (Yes, you read that right.)
We decided to eat first, so we head down to the BBQ, which is situated in two school buses. One is where you place your order and they make it, the other is where the magic happens. We take a seat in the dining (magic) bus which has been renovated to resemble a dining room. It also has hundreds of those alphabet magnets to give you something to do while you wait for the deliciousness to descend. I had the brisket sammy, macaroni salad and a big ole pickle. It did not disappoint.
We then went to the reptile zoo (open 365 days a year!!) and wow. They have the 10 most venomous snakes, as well as dozens of other creepy crawlies. I'm pretty sure at one point there was a half baked plan in our party to liberate the crocodile, but I'm guessing it didn't pan out....
Later Saturday night I went to an Easter fiesta where we dined on nachos and margs whilst decorating hard boiled eggs. And yes, it was awesome.
Sunday was pretty much like it usually is. Had brunch, cleaned my place, vegged out and went to karaoke. It was my friend's night off, so he wore his sunglasses inside, and apparently started a trend....

I've been needing to start blogging again.....

I’ve been wanting to start up blogging again but I’m still undergoing a lot of change and have been trying to work out how much of it I want to share ‘publicly’. My divorce was finalized on the last day of last year, so I’ve felt compelled to continue moving forward in every way possible. I haven’t necessarily been very patient with myself, so i feel that in some respects I have moved forward by leaps and bounds, and in others have kind of just been spinning my wheels. Fortunately I seem to have the disposition that leads me to look for the lesson to be learned or the positive side of things regardless of how bleak things seem in the moment, and that provides me with a profound sense of peace. I’ve been quietly mulling over what it is I hope to look back at come December 31st of this year. I still feel apprehensive about posting about it, but there are a few specific things and those seem to be falling into place.

My impulse control this year was much looser than I usually allow, and I definitely didn’t escape unscathed. However, the hurts will heal and I will be a better person one day for enduring and learning from what I’ve endured. I’ve learned that you can be good, you can be right, you can always be striving to be the bigger person, and other people will still find a way to use you or hurt you, no matter how hard you try to avoid it. Part of me wants to be like, ‘fuck people in general’ and just sit at home and binge watch tv, however, I firmly believe that none of the connections I’ve made this year were in vain. For every friend I’ve made (or attempted to make) and lost, there are at least a half a dozen new friendships that have been forged and I am eternally grateful for. As for the friends who have fallen by the wayside or away all together, I’m grateful for those as well. They’ve taught me about myself more than anything else, and that is always a good thing.

There are some pretty big changes coming down the pike of my life and I’m excited about what the future holds.
My work situation is changing, in both location and responsibility and I’m stoked about that for sure, this summer is shaping up to be a good one, providing its not unseasonably cold….. Which is still a distinct possibility seeing as I live in the Pacific Northwest.


The weekend is approaching and I’m looking forward to hopefully hiking with some friends (pictures to follow, fingers crossed!) as well as an Easter themed fiesta (you read that right) and of course, Sunday karaoke! :)
Stay tuned….

Pivot point

I moved into my new apartment this weekend! So relieved to finally have a place to rest and regroup for a while. Jared and I also got all of the divorce papers signed on Saturday so I can start getting that off and going too. Still a lot happening just under the surface, but it feels like I've reached a new plateau. I'm really motivated to get everything unpacked and settled, still not sure if I'll need a storage space or not. There's also a few crafty ideas I already have in mind, so it'll be nice to get that going as well! The next big thing on my wish list: a countertop dishwasher!

Update on me

hello all
sorry for not being more communicative over here on the blog. I'm still kind of in hibernation mode. I heard a quote the other day that sort of sums up what I feel I'm going through.
'The terror that occurs within the cocoon is the price of eventual freedom.'

so, thank you, for all of the friends and family who continue to support me as I go through this incredibly hard time. I hope to reward you all in turn ;)

been a little while

Hello!
It's been a little while since I last posted, I feel like the changes that are going on in my life are significant, and I've been finding it hard to express exactly how I'm feeling.  This experience is extremely unique and I truly feel sorry for every time I've ever judged anyone going through a divorce. It. Is. Awful.
Anyway, I don't want to be a downer, in reality, so I'm not going to start doing it here. I've been trying to focus on bettering my life, trying to do good things for myself and get out of 'self medication' mode. (which basically consists of eating crap, drinking too much, and staying out too late. You know, the uszh...) I feel like I'm finally ready physically to get back into yoga which I'm jazzed about. It was my main source of strength training pre-farm, (not a big fan of weight training) and I've been kinda freaked out to try it since I hurt myself last year. I'm looking forward to being strong again, in so many ways.
 I'm really hoping to get into an apartment by june 1st which is also huge. Having a kitchen again will make the whole healthy eating situation tremendously.
I'm officially giving myself a break from my original new years resolutions, and I'm ok with it ;)
The hibernation continues....